Rachel Surgalski: "Lilac Boy" (First Place in the 2014 Bookshop Santa Cruz Young Writers' Contest)



           Corduroy legs folded one over the othershoulders slumped; I sit hunched overtop the pale-pomegranate sofa. January water moans over the glass panes in pitter-patter birdsongs and glossy bullets. I exhale, and run a handful of fingers through ruched, sweat-stained locks. My neck hangs heavy over an empty mug clasped between cockled shins. My wristwatch is painted 2:14 a.m.. The kettle whistles from the stovetop. It's been whistling for the past three minutes, nonstop.

            I drag a pasty thumb over the glazed handle, eyes hazy, mind wandering. I think about you. I think about the bone structure beneath your honeysuckle skin. You were angular. I remember when I first saw you from behind my crocodile frames. You were wrapped in cable-knitted fleece, black milk in thick paper beside your lap, tipping your chair-legs back in the corner of that one coffeehouse. It was Open Micmy first, I might addand I remember how the salt in my palms scratched over the letters on my twice-folded parchment. I felt Blue Witch prickling up from beneath my socks, and tried my best to tear off the heads before anyone saw; thankfully, no one did. However, the poison still stitched into my skin, and I remember itching for weeks afterward.

            I went up and read the one I wrote about the men on the tube from two years agothe one I still revise to this day. I remember the upturn in your cheekalways asymmetric. You left your black milk on the tabletop to talk to me, to tell me you enjoyed how the men were like safety pins, how the tube was like a plastic glove, how it all reminded you of your Great-Uncle. You told me my work was "thought-provoking". I told you it didn't really mean anything. You said it didn't matter. I'm still unsure of what you meant by that.

            You dropped your eyes to the ground, then to my socks. Fragments of blue skin and green wire hung over the rumpled cuffs. I watched you watch me; watched you say nothing of it. You turned your chin up again, a bit to one side, asking if you could read more sometime, whenever I was free to hang out or something and maybe we could grab coffee or teawhatever I wantedtoo. We met again two days later.

            I remember the first time my name crawled from your lips, "Aiden". It tasted different to me from your mouth. Your voice was like licorice and thyme. I'd always hated licorice, yet I could never get enough of the way you spoke to me. I think about the first time you allowed me to graze your framework, how I thought the notches in your knuckles would be too sharp and sliver the cracks in my rose-petal palms. I was glad they weren't. I think about how I haven't seen you in almost three weeks, now. I turn my gaze toward my hands. Posey buds melt in alabaster between each finger, their onion-skin layers peeled and frail. I close my eyes.

           When you'd come over, you always wanted the same Earl Grey, but only in the white mug. We'd drink, and you would talk. You'd tell me about your plans, about your future. You told me I could write poetry or novels or whatever I wanted about our travels. I told you I looked forward to it. Chrysanthemum heads blister from my fingertips. I bite them off, spitting them into the mugit stings.

           I remember how we'd tangle together, you catching the Baby's Breath behind my neck, braiding chains along my hairline. I remember how you'd run your milky tongue over all of my edges, sealing the cracks in my skin with every word. I remember, it was a Tuesday. You'd found the seeds beneath my arm hair, and called me your "Lilac Boy" when you saw the purple tucked behind my ear. I twist my neck downward. Spoonfuls of lupin and mauve-veined pansies crawl over my sternum, itching.

           I remember how you'd planted Forget-Me-Nots in the small of my back after our sixth evening together. For a while afterward, you'd always water themmeticulouslyeach time we met, each time you interlaced your skin with mine, each time you rolled thyme between my ears. I remember how I'd disentangle in your soil-stained palms. Everything was good. My tailbone erupts in clusters of five-pointed facesperiwinkle and marigold.

            I remember how four weeks ago, I'd seen your lips pressed over Ben's skin, the two of you shuffling messily together in the dark of that one coffeehouse during Open Mic. I remember how you were supposed to be seeing your sister that nighthow you were supposed to be with her, because she needed you, because she needed to talk with you about something you didn't want to share with me, because it was too personal, and I could understand that. I remember how in my head, I'd seen nothing. How in my head, you and I had gone off into the corners together. How in my head, I was the one whose hair you had knotted in your fingers. How in my head, it was my name you were exhaling, "Aiden, Aiden, Aiden." I remember how I walked home alone that night. How when I got home I tried to make tea, but you had used up the last of my Earl Grey. Dusts of dried and crippled lavender fall from my criss-crossed heels, onto the hardwood floor.

           I remember when you told me. The dandelions at the back of my knees ached, and I asked how long. You closed your lips, and ran that curdled tongue over your own cracks. You shook your head. You said it didn't matter. You said it meant nothing. You said, "Lilac Boy, I'm sorry." My watch reads 2:19 a.m.. I try to smooth out the lumps at the back of my mouth. Limp daisy petals fall over and down my crumpled cheeks, down onto my lap, just like they'd fallen back then. I remember what it felt like to wilt inside. I look at the cracks in the mug, licking back the calcine in my throat. You said you were sorry. I told you it didn't matter. You called me your "Lilac Boy". You said, "Lilac Boy, I'm sorry." I still taste the licorice behind my ears. "I'm sorryI'm sorryI'm sorryI'm sor" it loops, skipping a few times like it always haslike it always has, for the past three weeks. "Lilac Boy, I'm sorryI'mI'm sorryLilacI'msorry, LilacI'm sorryBoy, I'm sorLilac, I'mBoy, I'm sorry."

            The kettle has been whistling for the past eight minutes, nonstop.

New Light Shed on Dark Tales: Step-Mothers Exonerated

The Grimm brothers' fairytales originally did not feature the step-mother as the menace which came to (at least partly) define the genre.

Thanksgiving Gift

I'm sorry for changing things, but I forgot that you have your UC application and essay deadline over break.  Therefore, your only homework is to finish watching the movie.  Spread the word.  Thank you!

The Tempest Video

Hobbits and Hippies: (Link fixed)

 Echoes of Your Past in BBC's Present

Block Day: The Tempest in Your Teapot Begins

* Open
  • Turn in your CWP to the tray, please
  • Renaissance Notes Quiz
  • Memorization
* Giving Thanks!
  • "I would maintain that thanks are the highest form of thoughtand that gratitude is happiness doubled by wonder." G. K. Chesterton
* Introduction to The Tempest

* Begin The Tempest Video

HW:
  • Finish Watching the Tempest Video
  • Reread something (or a significant part of something) you've read for class this year until you run into something wonderful. 
    • Journal: What new treasures have you discovered rereading (any length)?  We will review when we return to class. 
  • Want more?  We will be writing for the Coastal Commission poetry contest when you return.  Go the beach or coastal region...enjoy...relax...write.  
  • Let's make any essay rewrites due the end of the week you return so that you can enjoy the sweeter things more fully next week.  


Tuesday, 11/17/14: Chaucer Project

* Open
* Discuss your Chaucerian plan so that you are free to write your introductions.

* Finish your Renaissance notes.

HW: CWP work; finish your Renaissance notes

Unimaginable Virtuosity in Stone: Michaelangelo's Pieta (Italian "Pity"; 1499); Mary holds her Son and Lord.  Stones cry out. This, too, is your inheritance.

Monday, 11/17/14: The Renaissance

* Open

  • Grammar:  Do Exercise 2 - Finding Fragments (on your iPad)
    • Do the first 10 
    • Continue further for the number of questions you missed
    • What is the difference between a coordinate and subordinate conjunction?  
  • Memorization
  • Calendar
* "The Renaissance" (1500-1652): Read. Take notes on each bolded section:
    • One main sentence
    • Two or more sub points for each section
"Primavera" (Spring) by Botticelli (1482); the rebirth came rather earlier in warmer climes:
Whan that Aprill with his shoures soote...sweet showers indeed. Read this from right to left: Zephyr's cold March wind finds the beautiful nymph Chloris...their union (she becomes Flora) domesticates the wind, impregnates her, and she is going to spread life (over 130 different flowers in this painting).  Venus oversees all of this, the Graces dance, and Mercury...drives away clouds?  For more, visit the source, the Ufizzi. .


HW: Introduction to your tale; Review for tomorrow's quiz on vocabulary lists 2-3

A Hideous Weakness

CHAUCER RECUAHC! MADAM, I'M ADAM...TOO HOT TO HOOT!

* Open
  • Memorization
  • Collect AP M.C. Corrections
    • Per. 6 Review AP M.C.
  • Vocabulary Reviewed
* Chaucer Group Work (4's)
  • Read your prologues
  • Read your tales
  • Questions to consider
    • Do we have couplets?
    • Do we have something near iambic pentameter?
    • How well does the tale relate to the teller?
    • Is this interesting...or will this be the weakest link?
    • Offer three suggestions for improvement. 
    • Offer three encouragements (something done well).
  • Do thy homework (finish your tale; put it and your prologue into the Google docs).
* So what's, so what's, so what's the--scenario?


* Period 3

* Period 4
* Period 5

* Period 6
* College Work or A Knight's Tale

HW: Finish your tale for Monday (put it and your prologue into the appropriate Google doc); vocabulary quiz on Tuesday

Chapel Survey During Advisory (per. 4)

Please take this survey on our last month of chapels.

Thank you!

Wednesday, 11/12/14: CWP Work

* Open
  • Add to terms: 
    • HEROIC COUPLET: Two successive rhyming lines of iambic pentameter. The second line is usually end-stopped (also more rarely called "the neoclassic couplet" if the poem hails from that period--1700's into 1800's)
      • Would we call Chaucer's couplets neoclassic couplets? 
  • Example:
    • Fear not the curse of Chaucer killing you,
    • For a sound couplet's all that you must do.  
  • List 3 (21--30): Chiasmus in Convalescent Homes
     
  • avocation  
  • capricious  
  • disparity 
  • efficacy  
  • epistle  
  • hospice 
  • impetus  
  • moribund  
  • reticent  
  • vacillate 

* Prologue Review

* Chaucerian Story
  • This could be any tale of old (you don't have to invent a new one, but you may). 
  • Consider the kind of tale that might suit or ironically comment on your character.  
* Period 3

* Period 4
* Period 5

* Period 6

HW: 10+ heroic couplets of your character's tale.  We will consider an introduction to your tale once we have the classes frame setup (on block day).

Tuesday, 11/11/14: I See Fire


* Open

  • Copy your next memorization passage into your composition book:

    1         Whan that Aprill with his shoures soote
    2         The droghte of March hath perced to the roote,
    3         And bathed every veyne in swich licour
    4         Of which vertu engendred is the flour;
    5         Whan Zephirus eek with his sweete breeth
    6         Inspired hath in every holt and heeth
    7         The tendre croppes, and the yonge sonne
    8         Hath in the Ram his half cours yronne,
    9         And smale foweles maken melodye,
    10       That slepen al the nyght with open ye
    11       (So priketh hem Nature in hir corages),
    12       Thanne longen folk to goon on pilgrimages,
    13       And palmeres for to seken straunge strondes,
    14       To ferne halwes, kowthe in sondry londes;
    15       And specially from every shires ende
    16       Of Engelond to Caunterbury they wende,
    17       The hooly blisful martir for to seke,
    18       That hem hath holpen whan that they were seeke.


* M.C. Scoring (if all have finished)

    * Chaucer CWP Work
    •  Step 3: Let's begin with what you will put in the General Prologue to our tales (not the tale your character will tell, but the initial background put into verse). 
    • Requirements
      • Heroic couplets: couplets (rhyming pairs) in the (close to in our case) iambic pentameter.  Example:
    • Twenty lines (ten heroic couplets) or more. 

     

    HW: "General Prologue" Introduction: 20 lines (10 couplets)



    Monday, 11/10/14: Fare thou well, Goodman Chaucer

    * Open
    • Look over your journal 12 to share in class today. 
    • Review the week together.
    • Calendar: Vocab. quiz moved to next Tuesday as our Journal 12 has spurred some strong discussion. 
    * Class Discussion of our Journal 12. 


     * Chaucer's Retraction (modernized) 

    * Step 2 of our Creative Writing Project: Now, elaborate your character into a paragraph.  Consider personality, experience, carriage,  issues, education, aspirations, faith and philosophy, complications, and physical traits.



    HW: Read "The Fiery Wooing of Mordred


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    Chaucerian Block


    * Open
    • Short Quiz on Chaucer, Phrases and Clauses
    • AP M.C. Selection
    * Please work on your Journal 12 questions when you have completed both quizzes.  When everyone in class has turned in the quiz, I will announce it, and you may work in groups. 


    * Continue Group Work:

    11.  Why do you think this tale is set in King Arthur's days?  How has the knight violated the code of chivalry? 
     
    12. How does the Wife of Bath view the fairy superstitions of old?  How does she view the church's friars that disabused Britons of the superstitions?
     
    13. Find and explain three remarks within the tale (not the prologue) that remind us that the Wife of Bath is telling this tale. 
     
    14. What does fire symbolize in this story?  Explain.  
     
    15. "The Wife of Bath's Tale" both compares with (contrasts) and compares to (similarities) Sir Gawain and the Green Knight in its plot and characterization.  Describe two similar and two contrasting aspects of the pieces. 
     

    16. How does this story square with a biblical view of marriage concerning husbands and wives?  Use three or more scriptures to defend your answer (here are a few to get started...but dig a bit yourself, please).
     
    17.  In the end, this is a man's view (Chaucer) of a woman's view (The Wife of Bath) of women.  In the final analysis, do you think he is correct?  Do you think he is fair in his treatment?  Where would you say that he has fallen short?  
     
    18.  Cultural Questing:   A. (treated in class already, so skip "A" for this journal). In this story, a rapist is pardoned.  Is this a morally evil way to explore a theme in literature?  How did Chaucer make the forgiveness more plausible?  What about rape today?  What do you think the penalty should be?
     
    B. How do you think a seemingly innocent young person can grow up to become a rapist?  What are some wise steps you can take now to protect yourself and also protect yourself from becoming a sad threat to another? 

    * Class Discussion of our Journal 12. 

    * Step 1 of our Creative Writing Project: Please choose a character:


    HW: Please finish your journal, choose your character, and read Chaucer's retraction above.  We will discuss the retraction and journal on Monday.   

    Wedenday, 11/5/14: The Wife of Bath's (K)Night(mare)



      * Open
    • Please reflect and write in your composition book (notes section):
      • Generally, what do men and women want from their beloved in a romantic relationship  today (courting, dating, engaged, or married)? 
      • Specifically, what do you hope to have in your present or future relationship?
    Recent reading (and rereading):

    * Journal 12 continued in groups (Begin today, finish during block period):

    11.  Why do you think this tale is set in King Arthur's days?  How has the knight violated the code of chivalry? 

    12. How does the Wife of Bath view the fairy superstitions of old?  How does she view the church's friars that disabused Britons of the superstitions?

    13. Find and explain three remarks within the tale (not the prologue) that remind us that the Wife of Bath is telling this tale. 

    14. What does fire symbolize in this story?  Explain.  

    15. "The Wife of Bath's Tale" both compares with (contrasts) and compares to (similarities) Sir Gawain and the Green Knight in its plot and characterization.  Describe two similar and two contrasting aspects of the pieces. 

    16. How does this story square with a biblical view of marriage concerning husbands and wives?  Use three or more scriptures to defend your answer (here are a few to get started...but dig a bit yourself, please).

    17.  In the end, this is a man's view (Chaucer) of a woman's view (The Wife of Bath) of women.  In the final analysis, do you think he is correct?  Do you think he is fair in his treatment?  Where would you say that he has fallen short?  

    18.  Cultural Questing:  
    A. (treated in class already, so skip for the journal). In this story, a rapist is pardoned.  Is this a morally evil way to explore a theme in literature?  How did Chaucer make the forgiveness more plausible?  What about rape today?  What do you think the penalty should be?

    B. How do you think a seemingly innocent young person can grow up to become a rapist?  What are some wise steps you can take now to protect yourself and also protect yourself from becoming a sad threat to another?

     

    HW: Review Chaucer, phrases and clauses

    Tuesday, 11/4/14: Pardon me, Mrs. Bath

    * Open
    • Practice where we reach: 
      • Grammar: Do Exercise 1 on fragments.
        • Answer the first 10. 
        • Do as many after #10 as you missed from the first 10 (so, if you missed 3 in the first 10, do three more for a total of 13).  

    * Reading and Journal 12, Part III: "The Wife of Bath's Tale"
      • 9. The knight’s quest is to find out what women want. What irony do you see in this? 
      • 10. In lines 276–278, the knight moans about having the old woman for his wife. How does she respond to each objection he raises? 
      • (We will answer more together in groups tomorrow.)  

    HW: Read and answer the two questions above in Journal 12


    Today's Chapel

    • Extended Chapel Today: seniors, you may choose one of the two options below
      • Story Time with Schwager (HS Gym Lobby)
      • Religion Ain't My Thang - Reflections on Prayer (Wrestling Room)
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